schoolin’ sara beth

Happy Ex-Spouse day!!!! Who knew they had such a thing!? So, I’ve been married twice, on my way to being divorced twice and that makes two ex-husbands and lots of lessons. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would ever say that I had … 2 ex-husbands. Broken relationships seem to be all I know BUT … with brokenness comes a new opportunity to mend and grow and that is exactly what I’ve done through the years. What I know about myself now is that I fall fast and for years I loved the free fall, I craved it like an adrenaline junkie. You know that new relationship feeling that gives you butterflies and goosebumps all at the same time. The one that makes you feel like you could fly. The one that gives you your highest highs and in a split second, your lowest lows. I’m learning to control the fall a bit. I believe it’s because I have so much to give. I want to love bigger than life and yet it escapes me. I am determined not to only find the break, not to only see the ache and the failure but to also realize the lessons I have the opportunity to learn along the way. I’d love to share just 5 of the many leason’s I’ve learned.

  1. There is NO MAN worth giving up yourself for. There are men who will drain the very life out of you. They will suck your spirit dry. They will take everything you are willing to give. Don’t give yourself up. Don’t change to make them like you. Don’t give even a piece of you up to be anything different than you have been created to be!
  2. In the end it boils down to this small fact, you only have control over you. You can’t make anyone like you, love you, respect you, care about you. You do you and in the end those meant to find you will.
  3. If a man wants you, he will make time for you. You won’t have to beg him or bribe him. He honestly won’t be able to get enough for you.
  4. If he loves you and recognizes your value, he will rid his life of anything that threatens his relationship with you.
  5. The fact that someone has chosen to loose you does NOT cheapen your value. Mourn the loss if you must but don’t you dare stay there! Pick your self up, wipe the tears and if you didn’t wear waterproof mascara, wipe the streaks off your face and reapply, shake it off and know that you know that you know …God is able to bring beauty from your ashes, you just have to be willing to hand them over.

Much Love! SB

American Idol, the best audition ever!

If you did not see “Kai the singer” on American Idol, and even if you did, you really should watch again.check out Kai the singer here

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Such a beautiful soul! I wish you all the best in the years to come!

It must be said … I really want to be like her when I grow up! I mean, it takes something in your depths to be able to view life and its many challenges like she does . I’m not talking about your everyday hardships. You know, like my credit card bill is due and I don’t know how I’m going to pay it or  We eatin’ beanie weenies for dinner all week before pay day. No, this girl said she and her family lived in their car and she was THANKFUL for the car!!! I am sure many, probably most of us Americans have a difficult time wrapping our head around that. I can only speak for myself and say I feel certain I unfortunately,  would probably not demonstrate the same attitude in that situation.

We as a society have become so accustomed to having our own space, our privacy, we don’t share our telephone and we have personal sized everything. That puts us in a really selfish mindset. Lord help me not to be selfish, help me not to forget all the blessings you have poured out over my life, help me to look at my world through the eyes of Kai the singer!


Find your inner warrior!

By Susan James

Have you ever heard the saying, “ New year, new me?” Of course you have because as soon as that clock strikes midnight, that is the statement everyone wants to live by. Then a few months go by and the weight isn’t coming off fast enough or your new career path isn’t going how you thought it would. Life is funny that way you know? We tend to just give up if we aren’t getting the results we want right away. This is exactly what I experienced in 2018.

The beginning of the year started off great. We had just welcomed our second child into the world, we both had jobs that we enjoyed for the most part, money was steady, and it just seemed like the year was gonna be a good one. Then in May, it seemed like everything seemed to take a turn. My marriage was taking a hard hit, my husband was dealing with demons that I couldn’t quite help him with. Not long after that I made the decision to leave my job and then the depression started to set in.

You know that feeling when you get in the pit of your stomach, the one when you start trying to figure out how you got to such a low point. You find yourself sitting on the floor while your babies are napping, looking at them and thinking, “ I failed you.” Well I’m here to tell you, there is hope. There is hope for the girl out there who has given it her all, whether it was a relationship or a job and feels like she failed. You have it in you to pick yourself up and say “not today Satan.” It’s easier said than done, I know but God has done big things in my life before and I am going to keep trusting that big things are coming! So get up, kick off that hurt that is knocking you down right now and shower yourself in some hope.

You got this, there is a warrior inside all of us!

Change ….

Change is inevitable. The world and life in it are constantly moving, reshaping, refocusing … changing. So many of us view change as bad. We don’t like it and we sometimes fight against it with everything we’ve got. We neglect to remember there are just as many positive changes as negative and often positive outcomes develop as a result of what we view as the negative change.

For instance, as it was clear my marriage was failing I grew. I grew in the understanding of myself, I grew in faith, I grew in confidence. I grew! I have gained new friendships and even enjoyed some fun times I never would have had if I not been separated. I have even found my inner artist. The ending of the marriage was devastating. More because it feels not only like rejection but also failure and I hate to fail at anything, but none the less it was over. I could have buried myself in deep. I could have taken months even years to get over it. I could have spent the rest of my lifetime devastated. Instead, I spent countless hours asking God to show me what positive outcome would come out of a situation I could see nothing good in and He did just that. He unfolded and revealed things in me I had no idea were there. In addition He also developed a brave warrior spirit that is willing and ready now to fight for all He he has for me. He showed me a new boldness and where I would have layed down and let people walk on me in the past, I am no longer willing to take anyone’s S@*t! A brave new woman who is no longer willing to play the nice girl and allow others to inflict their own plan on her life. He took everything I thought would crush me and used it to build an alter that I would never ever ever forget the things He has done for me, through me and in me.

I’d be interested to hear, what experience have you had that at the time felt terrible and in the end turned out to be positive?

Day 1

I will be the first to tell you I’ve been down this road before … and by road I mean, I’ve started a blog. Well, actually I’ve started a couple and just eventually stopped writing. I can honestly say with my past blogs I was indecisive in the story I felt called to tell. Today, I at least know the direction I am heading and so a new journey begins and as the scripture says … God is in me. I will not fail!

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